July 5, 2007
Ah. What is it about the obsessive, the unrequited lover? “She” told me her brother wanted her to meet someone. He’s into the same things as her, but he is “way older”: about 10 years. That really rules me out, as if I had a chance in the first place. She does like men to be a bit more mature than the ones her age seem to be. That was what I had picked up on, and magnified into a full-blown obsession with a much younger woman. Sigh. Somehow, even knowing all this, knowing how hopeless it is, how pointless and fruitless wanting “her” will ever be, I still would go for the relationship if I could. Is it hope never dies? , or some people never learn?